I’ve been a right brainer for as long as I can remember. I’ve always loved arts and crafts over everything else, except maybe being in nature. As a small child I drew, painted, did craft projects with my mom, and started gardening when I was knee high to a grasshopper. These are all the things I’ve loved to do all of my life. Of course music became the driving force when I got old enough to start playing an instrument in school.
Through the years my focus has moved from one creative activity to another and then back. Even when life wasn’t very conducive I managed to keep a toehold in something creative.
Unfortunately the pressures of society, family, and my lack of courage and commitment, left me living a life that didn’t support my right brain penchant. My father had worked his way up the ladder from an entry level position to being an executive in a grocery chain, and somewhere along the line all three of us girls felt we were expected to do something similar. I’m not sure how I got that ingrained, because my mom was always telling me I could be anything I wanted to be and she was super supportive of my music. Somehow, though felt it was expected that I would follow in my father’s footsteps. Maybe I put that on myself. I really don’t know.
As I got older I also began to hear the age old “starving artist” chant, from both my family and others. Everyone thought I was super talented in music, but they would say things like,”You might want to have a backup, just in case,” or “Maybe you should major in music education. Then you’ll always have a job.” Although I didn’t bend to these wishes, I think that these doubt filled “words of wisdom” had a deep impact on me, probably because I wasn’t quite sure I was professional musician material.
After college I attempted to be a professional musician with some very limited success. I played with a couple of small ensembles and did a couple year long stints with two different part-time professional orchestras. Somewhere along the line, though, I realized I wasn’t going to make it in my dream profession. Years later I realized most of my problems came from not knowing what to do, but that’s another blog.
For a lot of years I drifted. I tried to become a white collar worker, but because my heart wasn’t in it, and I moved very frequently for many years, I never got off the bottom rung. I even made a couple forays into creative endeavors, but again the lack of courage and commitment, as well as the knowledge on how to promote my businesses, was lacking.
However, I’ve never stopped being creative. I can’t. I feel panicky if I don’t have some creative project in the works, even if it is small. Finally just about a year ago I allowed myself to fully embrace the person that I am. I am a creative. I’m not a professional, but a pretty accomplished amateur, and in some areas I probably could be a professional if I concentrated on that area. One of those is teaching, because I’m really good at it. I’ve been told so by many people over the years.
I came up with the idea for this site when I realized that most of my problem with success in my endeavors was because I don’t have much of a support system. This is mainly caused by the fact that I moved frequently for many, many years and being a shy introvert type I never had the time, or the courage, to go out and meet people of like mind.
Even now, I live out in the country, so it is not easy for me to go to meet ups and such. Plus there aren’t many creative meet ups in the area in which I live. So, I decided to create a virtual meet up space for all creatives, both professional and amateur to come together and hobnob. I know every single one of us, at one time or another, has needed the encouragement of someone around us to keep going, even when your livelihood isn’t dependent on creativity. We start a project that pushes our abilities boundary, or we come up against a brick wall in solving a creative problem.
Now that I’m embracing my creative self I want others to have the support and encouragement and camaraderie that I wanted and needed all these years. I want everyone to be able to embrace their creative self. From professional to beginner, I want every person, who desires to see their creativity grow and evolve, to have a safe place to “gather” with others to do so.
I want to fan the flames of creativity, and douse the doubts with the water of encouragement and knowledge. I want to bring being creativity out of the dark and allow it to be the brilliant light it is meant to be. I want the right side of the brain to be as lauded as the left, so that the two of them can come together to create on a whole new level. I want every creative person to come out of their closet and shout from the mountain tops for all to hear, their true passion.