I’m beginning to realize that I’m going to have to scale down my plans for my time off. I have to make healing my priority. I had wanted to make my business the main player but after just three days I’m seeing that taking care of myself is taking a lot more time and energy than I thought it would and it has to be the priority.
I’m using my injured hand a lot more and it takes a lot of effort and energy to do that. Subsequently, I ended up taking a long nap yesterday when I thought I was going to work on embroidery and try out the digitizing program. It may seem like I mention naps a lot in my journal and I do. That is one of the main reasons I’m taking the time to do so much work on myself. I just haven’t been able to get my mojo back. I am feeling some better but I used to run circles around people half my age. I need to focus on getting that energy back or I’ll go into my golden years like a Model T instead of a Ferrari.
In the late afternoon and evening, I did manage to get several designs stitched out. I’m way short of the three a day I wanted to complete. I think the final tally will end up being more like one or two a day. I will continue to work toward being able to complete my goal over the coming months. Over time I’ll have a better idea of what is truly possible. Especially since I came to the realization (see blog), that I need to concentrate on allowing my authentic self to emerge, rather than fulfilling some tyrant imposed schedule.
I did take a walk just before sunset. The weather has been unseasonably warm so much so that I didn’t even wear a coat. It felt really good to be out in the fresh air and sunshine. I plan to do a lot more walks when the weather permits. When my finger is more fully healed I’ll venture onto short hikes. Right now I don’t want to risk a fall should a path be too slippery so I’ll stick to sidewalks. Even then I can feel the wind on my face, breath fresh air, and watch and commune with nature.